Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Fear... it's a funny thing




According to Webster the word fear means a painful emotion of passion excited by the expectation of evil, or the apprehension of impending danger, apprehension, anxiety; alarm; or dread. I have been thinking a lot about fear lately... rather I have been thinking a lot about the idea of being fearless. Rhian seems to be pretty fearless. Lately, I can't even turn my back or blink my eyes because she is climbing and then no joke... just stepping off of chairs, couches, steps you name it. At first it frustrated me because in my little mind I couldn't comprehend how she didn't get how dangerous it could be... then it hit me as I thought about it further, even as I typed the definition of fear... she isn't afraid because she has no expectation of what danger she could put herself in. She is full of trust, excitement and adventure without knowing what danger could come out of stepping off of chairs. It also hit me that that's what being a parent means... there will be so many times in life that she won't know or understand the danger of some things and it is our God given role to help protect her from danger. The physical danger now of getting hurt and later in life the danger/ protection of decisions. I shouldn't be frustrated because she doesn't get it... she's not entirely supposed to. That's what we are here for. Not to take that life and fearlessness away but help guide her to safe decisions and a healthy awareness of her surroundings.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Happy Birthday to you...



Happy Birthday sweet girl!!! I can't believe how fast this first year has come and gone! It has been so incredibly sweet to watch your little personality grow! You are so full of life and the desire to explore everything. And it is so apparent even at such a young age that you have a magnetic personality... you are drawn to people everywhere we go. I am thankful to be your momma!!!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Follow your dreams...






For many years as a kid my dad coached our basketball teams and drove hours each week to come and watch my brother and I play whichever sport we played. Jan 18th, 2010 was just one night to start to return the support. I have watched my dad over the past few years work very hard to move up in the rankings to be the best official that he can be in hopes to become a D1 official. We got to cheer him on as he was awarded a great sectional game for the NORCAL high school championship games. It is quite the accomplishment and the fruits of hard work and the desire to follow his dreams were paying off.
In life people love to give advise... but my dad has not only given the constant encouragement to "follow your dreams" he has shown us that with commitment, hard work and passion, dreams really can come true.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

What you're doing - Sanctus Real

What you're doing - Sanctus Real

I have heard this song a thousand times on the radio and I even have it on my Iphone, but today something was different. I listened to the words of this song and as I heard each word it was as if the words were spoken directly to me. I have let the hurt of this world, dissapointment of failure, and the cutthroatness (I'm not sure that's a word) of the corporate world and the struggle of responsibilities pry me from the heart of my God. I surrender...


It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out